Assalamua'alaikum & hello everyone. So long. Today I feel mix between sad and happy. I've been cooking since 5.30am and now taking a nap.
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^o^ I am happy because I can cook. Frying fish crackers for Adik and her friends. There were Su, Wani and.... Argh I can't recall her name. Damn it. The one that live nearby Troso, Sungai Siput, Perak. I'm not sure either it's Troso, Trosor, Terosor or maybe none of them wasn't the right spelling. Lol. Hurm. "Hantam sajalah labuuuu" .
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After a long rest, today is the busiest day after almost a year of resting. What did I do within a year ago? No. I won't answer that question. Adik and his friends taking komuter from Arau to Kobah station yesterday. They arrive around Maghrib prayer. 7.15pm if I'm not mistaken. Rushing from their Co curriculum activities. I'm asking one of them?
"Buat apa ja kat koko tu?". The answer was a bit odd for ordinary University students. 1 of them was taking Civil engineering course while the rest (including my Adik) were taking Environment Engineering Courses. Guest what. They were practicing "ANGKLUNG". Oh wow! I am impressed with four of them. I thought they would taking activities like sports or something related to religious. Well I don't know. Perhaps Co-co and Co-q is giving me head ache since my primary school. Duh. Back then I was a sprinter during my school sports day, long jump, president of Tables tennis, president of Puteri Islam and also an athlete during my SKP. I'm not good enough to remember what is the difference between Co-co and Co-q. Hey. We shouldn't discuss about this. It wasting my time.
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:'( I'm sad due to nothing. May I felt missing my day with my friends.I miss them so much. Seeing how happy Adik and her friends make me feel I'm not worth to have relationship between a humans. Most of my friends said that I am not an easy going person. Oh well. I'm having "sindrom anak ke-2". You know, something related of being independent in every aspect and being perfectionist in our way that anyone couldn't understand. And now almost all my friends are gone. I don't blame them to ignored me and the the fact that I have been a bit quite for almost a year. I've been into personal crisis and having treated by specialist during the long rest.
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It is a great way for rebuild my own self. A lot of times I've been deactivate my social media. I disconnected with people for few months quite sometimes. When I feel relaxed and release I'll activate them. But few times again and again it hit me. I'll disconnected with friends and families. The personal crisis affected my relationship with everyone and almost everything. No. I don't blame the crisis inside my own personality. Lately I've succeeded in managing them with professional advice. And I hope it will not a temporary effects. Every day I woke up and make du'a to Allah to give me strength and durability for every occasion in my life.
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Last but not least, lets cherish our lives and always remember Allah. To all my long lost friends, please forgive me for every single sins that I have done. Again I'm so sorry for not being there when you need me. I believe time will heal you and one fine day you will understand what I meant.
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I think that's all for now. Ahaa. I forgot to mention that I've managed to make cheesekut in two flavor. Original and chocolate. They will be sold to UniMAP students. And of course it's affordable. Now, I would like to end here. Till then, good bye and Assalamua'alaikum.
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💝 Diyana 💝
